So, for all you FB friends who follow my status updates and are now checking my blog to find out "what the hell happened", let me fill you in:
I was so excited when I landed what I thought to be my dream job at the new David Barton Gym in Bellevue. Gorgeous, funky, high end gym. Sounded like it paid well. The people seemed really cool. They built an amazing team of trainers and admin staff all from right here in the northwest. BUT...sometimes, looks can be deceiving and to be politically correct, I will just say that after 4 weeks I learned 2 important things: 1) I love personal training. It is what I want to do and it is what I am good at. 2) I ended up in the wrong place to do what I love to do, so now I set out to find the right place.
I've spent the last few weeks working like a dog. I've spent more money in babysitting, gas and parking than I made in wages. (let's just not even go there!!!) I spent too much time away from my children. As a single mom of 4 I have to have a job that gives me some work-life balance. My children need me and I need them. I can't pull 12-14 hour days, 7 days a week. It's just not possible and I don't think I need to do that to do what I love doing.
The state is going to pay for my kids to go to daycare for the next 28 days. That gives me 28 days to study like it's my full time job for my NSCA (National Strength & Conditioning Assoc) certification and network with other gyms/training studios so I can go to work at the end of next month. I can do this and I will do this. I don't have any other option.
I won't lie, I'm really struggling right now. I feel like I've been in the dark tunnel for a long time now and I am ready to see the light. I have to believe that by closing this door the next door is getting ready to open. And I hope and pray that the next door is the right door.
I don't feel like I wasted my time the last few weeks. I learned a lot about myself and I know my direction now. I just need to find my confidence again, get some rest and rock it out for the next 28 days...I should probably take a shower and wash my hair too.