Someday

I used to hate Fridays. For a long time I hated Friday afternoon and loved Monday morning. Now it seems I like Fridays again and hate Mondays. For the first time in a long time I had that "drag-your-ass-outta-bed" Monday morning feeling. I didn't have an office to go to, but somehow Monday brings the reality that I don't have an income and I don't have a dependable 8-5 job to rely on. I thought I was resentful of leaving the workforce to head up this household before...well, that was nothin' comapred to how I'm feeling now. I had a great job that I was really good at and made a good living.

It's easy to get down when I let my mind "go there" and realize how far I have to go to get to where I need to be from an income/work standpoint. The task is daunting and I've actually had to pick myself up off the laundry room floor, wipe away the tears and remind myself (with help from others) that I am capable of doing this. I'm a survivor. I will get thru this.

I've had a rough start to the week. A couple of bad days, but I am going to continue to pick myself up and keep going and keep working towards my goal of providing for these kids and working my way out of this grave of debt I'm buried in.

I was doing cardio yesterday morning and listening to the newly-released Rob Thomas album (it's unbelievably awesome!!!) and the song "Someday" came on. I forwarded past it because, well, it's kind of slow and I needed to crank on the stepmill. Usually when I forward past a song my ipod doesnt come back to it...it came back THREE times. So, I get it...I'm supposed to listen to the damn song. Like really listen. So I did and here are the lyrics (I don't skip past the song anymore)...

"Someday"

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

[Chorus]
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be so warm

[Chorus]

And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

[x2]
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again